In all my brilliance yesterday I decided to open up my calendar and see where we were at. BIG mistake! I am now crushed and full of anxiety because I only have 2 weeks left on maternity leave before I go back to the classroom part time. I don't like change and have a hard time getting back into routine after being out of them for so long. I feel like I just started my leave and had all these weeks and months ahead of me to relax and not think about going back.
I am not good with change or transitions. I am secretly thankful that both #TeamAmelie & #TeamOlivier came early and that I didn't have time to say "goodbye" to my students. I wouldn't have been able to handle that. Instead, I said "have a good weekend" to them at the end of the week and rode off into the sunset to deliver both babies. With "TeamAmelie I didn't go back to the classroom before the end of the year, but this time (in order to take advantage of having the summer off together) I am going back for the last 10 days. Both times are similar too in that I have to change schools for next year.
I have been declared surplus (that's for another post) and will be transferring to Elizabeth Park PS for next year to teach grade 1/2. My students (or their families) don't know yet and I am dreading the moment I have to tell them. Again, wishing I could just ride off into the sunset with my boxes and avoid the emotions of it all.
Today has really hit me with what I want to get done before I head back to the classroom and have been able to stroke a few things off my forever growing to do list. #TeamOlivier finally has his name up on the wall and next up is dismantling the growing pile of tupperwear containers thrown in the drawer and making some sort of organized sense of it all.
While I am not all that excited to think of it as my maternity leave being over, I am extremely excited to think of the notion that DH will be home with the kids and therefore with the family each night instead of off coaching other people's children (that too for another post).
So until we are all reunited for 8 weeks of uninterrupted family time on June 28th, I will take full advantage of my last two weeks of my second maternity leave because I know I won't ever get this time back.
Sunshine & happiness today & forever.